Read between the lines

You need no search at the self-help shelves to understand life and your own self, even a simple folktale can be an ultimate eye-opener if you're just willing to read between the lines .

Learn and never ever stop

Don't count the profit by the amount of money you receive or kill to receive a certificate by the end of every undertaking. Learn sincerely, generously, you will never know when you might need what

It's simple

In a materialistic world in which everyone strives and chases after money, I'd like to work for satisfaction.

Old habits die hard

The habits that we pick up at some point of time once fossilized within us won't leave us. Just like a tattoo, we take them everywhere we go, for as long as we live.

Love Thyself

Just like a good book with a well-illustrated cover, the person you are should overpower youself more than your gorgeous hair and hour-glass curves (which is the ultimate stereotype surely), and that is the real deal!

Monday, April 25, 2011

Tears: A Sign Of Humanity

the other side of the world =(
Ok what can one say about the ups and downs in life? Nothing right? We can’t resist them, we can’t shoo them, we can’t bear them neither. What a complicated situation! I thought I’m such a happy person till the last few days. When the scenario that is capable of pulling me off to the ground pays me a ‘homely’ visit! Geeee I didn’t mean that!! I got a free ride on the emotional roller-coaster and trust me, I haven’t get down YET! What a ride..Well, to add more details:

I’ve become very sensitive, touchy, emotional or what-so-ever your vocab spells it as, these days. There was a time like a few decades some time ago when making me cry took nothing less than placing a cut onion before me or blowing chilli powder in my eyes but,  now making me cry is as simple as making me look at a pleading beggar on the street. I don’t know and I'm really really not sure if it’s my sincere feeling for those in misery that makes me sad or is it my self-esteem which gets hurt as a result of my helplessness at the state of such people! The point is that, I don’t know. I don’t know yet who I am because I keep fluctuating between extreme states of selflessness and selfishness. Well,ya both. I’m a combination of contradiction to the point that it’s hard for me to breathe down a single breath without much reflection and monologues . And the inability to express those complexities further frustrates me. But the following quote makes up for a good expression of my oh-so-complicated thought process, so here it goes:

"I will tell you what I will do and what I will not do. I will not serve that in which I no longer believe, whether it call itself my home, my fatherland, or my church: and I will try to express myself in some mode of life or art as freely as I can and as wholly as I can, using for my defense the only arms I allow myself to use –“

Ok that was pretty much of it and the quote is not mine by the way. Thanks to James Joyce for expressing it on my behalf. *hyperbolic* well to highlight on the part of needy people who won my sympathy and humanity, I'm proud to say till this moment i never turned down anyone who came to me for help and i'm thankful to my parents who taught me this value. i will always help those who are really in need and it makes me happy to commit such charity . i hope those who read my blog will opt the same because the joy of the feeling that you had helped someone today, when you are about to sleep every night is really great.
Conclusion?its kinda a bit here and there isn't it? Again, I don’t know. I just love to write so much and sometimes I don’t even make sense and don’t think I don’t know that because I know that. And just because I know that it doesn’t mean I should know how to fix want I know. Ok I'm DONE!

i like it complex!!!! duhhh
Complexy-complexo World 
Renuka G

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Perfection Vs Hypocrisy

What ah??? =ppp

I don’t know why today I felt like talking about this again. But ya it happened and lets not question it much. I'm gonna talk about love. What is love?  You guys answer for yourselves, because  I dare not answer such a complicated question. Honestly, there is no universal explanation for love except to categorize it as a feeling. I suppose..hehe. ok lets begin! I once believed in this notion. What notion? This notion! 

I believe everyone can change if the right person comes along. 

Ok that is the ‘this notion’! well I really don’t think the whole idea can get any far.  Maybe in some cases it is proven to be true but honestly its kinda not taking the majority range. You can’t really change a person and that is a fact. People don’t change just because somebody is pressuring or demanding you to do so. It should come from the inside, one should realize and decide what he/she wants and correct himself/herself. Pressure to bring change? You can go fly kites!

Another thing about this whole idea of changing and becoming a new person is, it is overrated. Maybe coming clean and becoming perfect is the ultimate selfish act of the person who demands the change. Don’t you think it’s like a slight hypocrisy there? You love someone and you start going head over heels over that person and off a sudden when things don’t go as you wish you start to demand change as a solution. It might be pure hypocrisy sometimes. Plus, how long do you think it can last? few days?? months? till another catastrophe pays a visit to your happily-ever-after home?

Well, another blunder in this notion  it, its not like a person just changes and become a whole new person the next day like where did the old self went? Swept off by the wind? Don’t you think it sounds absurd? It is I suppose...

Love can never stand under the foundation of tolerance . It needs a strong base of understanding and acceptance. Without these, letting go is the best one can do. We're raised to believe that the course of true love never runs smoothly, there is always hiccups on and off. But if you think tolerating and changing solves, its going to end in big disappointments! Bank on it.
when disappointments batters your belief system, Mojojo recommends this book ..=)) *so drama*

 ~You can't be in love with only half a person~
Renuka G

Thursday, April 21, 2011


Finally I'm over with my UAKs and of course I'm kinda flying in the air thinking about the not-at-all hectic class schedule I'm gonna have next week onwards. There won’t be TITAS, BM, and also the subject I ‘adore’ the most GERKO! But certainly there is something that is gonna set me down as well. My finals for this semester!!!!!! OMG linguistics! OMG Literature! OMG OMG child development! OMG OMG OMG philosophy of education!!!! Goshh screwed. Well good news for you all!!!!! the rest of the post is not about my naggings k? So lets proceed.
I dream of being featured on sweet wrappers!! =pp

DREAMS… we all have them right! Remember wishing upon the stars? shooting stars? Full moon? Mulan? Hmm maybe not mulan. I'm kinda impressed by her though, just wanted to show my appreciation and admiration on her courage! Love you Mulan! Ok I'm done! Back to business. The dream I described just now was more like a wish or hope. That is not the core purpose of this post! I'm talking about the real dreams! Goals in life. When you imagine yourself to be somebody one day, to be somewhere everyone will look up to, something like that.
its written on my iPad! whatever my dream is he will always be happy for me =))

These dreams, often act as a driving force that gives us reason enough to look forward and start a new day. Dreams can’t be just random fantasies which lay there, in the back of your mind and you pull it out every once in a while just because they are wonderful! NO its different! 

Fantasy and dreams. You need to closely dichotomize the two of them and don’t ever think these two are the same piece of thought. Fantasizing is more like a shot in the air I suppose. If it reaches the target, well good enough, give it an applause!! However if it doesn’t, in that case, your fantasy either fades away or you find a new one to replace them. More like a temporary goal that varies and travels as your imaginations play in mind. But dreams are different, and dreams are important. 

Fulfillment of dreams mean hitting the bull’s eye not by chance but by sincerely working out your way towards an objective, this is what each of us should start sculpturing. It needs courage, persistence and a God-like passion for your dreams to materialize because it is more often a long term affair. You don’t dream today and tomorrow you forget about it and do some ordinary stuffs and dream again and forget again and yada yada! That is fantasy, a for-the-moment-thingy. 
My darlings wishin u all gud luck!! (do enlarge)

To live your dreams one needs to work towards it. Be sure about passion and the rest two will join you in the way. I know everyone who is reading this have a dream just like me. but do you guys think it is really a dream or a fantasy? Fantasy can be great for the moment but a dream requires you to travel a very very long road but when you finally get there, trust me it would be the best thing that ever happened to you. Hope this inspires you guys to figure your tiny tiny little little BIG dream! All the best!

Fantasies Fade but A Dream stays
Renuka G

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Satsuma My LOVE

Ok this is like a new attempt in my history of blogging I suppose! Hehe. Everything must have a start right? This post is gonna sound kinda or maybe exactly like some promotional add or post or review or what-so-ever you wish to call it as.

As a ‘proud’ member of The Body Shop, I would like to express my love for their Satsuma Puree Body Lotion!! OMG only god knows how much I love this particular item. I purchased it some time ago like about 2 months perhaps and I never get to use it till yesterday since I was busy glossing my body with their Strawberry Body Butter. And ya, today was the day. I pumped it, smelled it, smoothed it all over my hands and it smells unbelievably orange! Of course it does since Satsuma is mandarins and ya closely related to the family of and well whatever. It felt so cool on my skin and moisturized it and again you know the smell. This doesn’t mean that I'm neglecting or degrading my darling strawberry body butter and body scrub! They mean a lot to me as well. But this lotion just got me flying .*I know you know that was an exaggeration*  so me!
thnx to the body shop!!

Well let’s move on to the part where we start biting our nails and scratching our head! The PRICE of course. What else can it be right?? Hmm the 250 ml costs RM45 and the small one should cost less. Maybe you guys can try the small one first before ‘investing’ straight on a whole huge bottle! 

Ok right, that is all about the Satsuma lotion story I guess! The most important message I wanna highlight is that please don’t tell anyone who belongs to the family of the Body Shop that I'm doing some promotional post about their products in such a lame way , that is FATAL =pp  

Just keep chilling and keeping having great moments in life like my web cam pics!! Cute right??? *self praise is benign at times*

Renuka G

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Mr Happy Loves m3

Happiness is very subjective. Each of us see it in different ways, in different things. But one thing for sure is we know when we are happy. There is this weird excitement that takes control of yourself making you care a little less about the hurdles waiting. It’s an emotion none of us want to neither eliminate nor resist in our life. What can we relate with happiness?? Colours? Nature? Perhaps a sincere smile?
poor baby monkey can't see him =(

Its really weird at times to grasp how small things in life makes our day a happy one. Even if we trip the next moment, at the end of day when we reflect on the happy moment it still makes us smile a little. That is how important and meaningful happiness is. I remember one of the day a few months ago when I was feeling so depressed and frustrated and devastated and I don’t what other state , I heard my friend’s laughter from the room next door and I don’t know why it made me smile. Believe it or not friends, sometimes we do feel the bliss from other’s happiness. I didn’t make her laugh of course, she was watching some Korean tv show but yet her laughter made my day, like a boost perhaps to smile and forget the worries.

For me, it is all about the will. If you want to make yourself happy, you can! At all circumstances! But sometimes we should see the situation also of course!! You can’t be laughing like a mad man in the funeral house right? Or else I don’t know which asylum they are going to send you to. What a pity!
cute stuffs make me happy =))

Life is not about those tears you shed and the moments you spend grieving over spilt milk and stuffs. It’s about what you do with your life. I'm not going to be so philosophical and say you have to make a difference, create revolution, new innovation yada yada. So not me! Just keep your life in your grip. Nothing is more precious than your life. It’s a gift from god! If you believe in his existence, *whether you pray or not is another thing that I don’t wish to touch*, you should appreciate this gift and make each day meaningful to you, and trust me , if you can make this happen, you can certainly make people around you happy as well. It’s more like a chain reaction that continues and goes on and on. Make yourself happy 1st, , be glad that you are born in this world, take the lessons and move on, everything is gonna be alright!
<3 u all

Trust me, even a smile creates a chain reaction! Be happy! Things will be alright as long as you keep trusting. Now SMILEEEEEEEEE 

Renuka G

Monday, April 11, 2011

70 to remember !!

  1. To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world.
  2. Your presence is a present to the world.
  3. You are unique and one of a kind.
  4. Your life can be what you want it to be.
  5. Take the days just one at a time.
  6. Count your blessings, not your troubles.
  7. You will make it through whatever comes along.
  8. Within you are so many answers.
  9. Do not put limits on yourself.
  10. Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
  11. Reach for your peak, your goal and your prize.
  12. Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
  13. The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
  14. Do not take things too seriously.
  15. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.
  16. Remember that a little love goes a long way. Remember that a lot ... goes forever.
  17. Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
  18. Life's treasure are people together.
  19. Realize that it is never too late.
  20. Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
  21. Have hearth and hope and happiness.
  22. Life is 10% of what happens to you, and 90% of how you respond to it.
  23. Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily.
  24. Take the time to wish upon a star.
  25. Words are windows to the heart.
  26. You are richer today if you have laughed, given or forgiven.
  27. I don't have to attend every argument I'm invited to.
  28. Life is like an onion; you peel off one layer at a time and sometimes you weep.
  29. Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.
  30. A good example is the best sermon.
  31. No one is easier to deceive than oneself.
  32. The greatest fault of all is to be conscious of none.
  33. Love is understanding, acceptance, and tenderness. If it tries to strangle and possess, it is not love.
  34. The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.
  35. The task ahead of us is never as great as the Power within us.
  36. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
  37. When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
  38. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
  39. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
  40. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
  41. Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.
  42. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
  43. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
  44. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
  45. Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind.
  46. You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future.
  47. Love ......and you shall be loved.
  48. All people smile in the same language.
  49. A hug is a great size fits all. It can be given for any occasion and it's easy to exchange.
  50. Everyone needs to be loved...especially when they do not deserve it.
  51. The real measure of a man's wealth is what he has invested in love.
  52. Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.
  53. It's important for parents to live the same things they teach.
  54. If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday and the worries of tomorrow, you have no today to be thankful for.
  55. Happy memories never wear out.... relive them as often as you want.
  56. Home is the place where we grumble the most, but are often treated the best.
  57. The choice you make today will usually affect tomorrow.
  58. Take time to laugh for it is the music of the soul.
  59. If anyone speaks badly of you, live so none will believe it.
  60. Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears.
  61. Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.
  62. The best thing parents can do for their children is to love each other.
  63. Harsh words break no bones but they do break hearts.
  64. To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it.
  65. We take for granted the things that we should be giving thanks for.
  66. Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished.
  67. Happiness is enhanced by others but does not depend upon others.
  68. For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.
  69. Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are.

 Renuka G

Resisting Vs Resiilence cum Emptiness

Emptiness is an emotion that we feel deep inside ourselves. It doesn’t involve a he or a she but barely the in-existence of any mentioned . Its like a... or maybe exactly the you by yourself type of feeling. This perplexed thought often strikes us when we become lost in our own world. When to see left or right seems pointless.

I have felt that emptiness within me more than once. I wondered if it was saying something to me or was it just mocking me that we are alone no matter what we have or where we are.  Always wondered if others felt it too and how they dealt with it because it’s not easy from my eyes. Emotions in general is not an easy subject to be dealt with. It takes what they call as resilience, lots and lots of it not to resist, but to get through hurdles life casts along the way.

I have done stupid things to get over the emptiness and yet it stays within me. Resisting is never a good option, life doesn’t work that way you see. Like something bothers you and you shoo it away like shutting the door but at the end of the day you just made fool of yourself as the window is still open to welcome what you kept yourself away from. But, there are times when ‘emptiness’ keeps me sane, to be myself.  Yet there are times when I simply want to get rid of it like anyone else.

Talking about emptiness, it reminds me of an article I read few weeks ago which states God gives everything to man that he wishes but the one thing that he does not give is “peace”. That is the way things are.

Dealing with this important chapter of life called “emotions”, no matter what we do, the result we achieve, it’s only temporary whether its emptiness or any other feelings. At the back of our mind, the tension and stress is always there, it is up to one self to bring it alive or to ignore and get on with life. In short, whatever life throws at can’t be resisted, you just have to bear and bounce back to your normal self as soon as you find yourself being strangled by this so called ‘emotions’. 

Renuka G

Again its COMPLEX

Are you sometimes caught in a situation where you think you need to stop and reconsider? Or is it just me who has entered this state where I feel a need to rethink and re-prioritize things that are controlling my life. Despite the wants, I should focus more on what’s needed of me and by me. And lets stop here because I know Its not making too much sense and that’s exactly what the problem is, My problem doesn’t make sense when I think about it, but this shouldn’t mean that the problem doesn’t exist. What I want is what I get yet I don’t get what I want. Whoa complex! If only I could express it any better!

Hmm otherwise, life is good the way it is now. Hoping for better days without this rain bugging me 24/7, just that. 

Well, doesn’t this seem like the shortest post made ever?? Yes, I suppose it is, kinda refraining myself from being accused of novel writing on blogger :p

Renuka G

Philosophy of Fate

If a few years back you were to come to me and ask whether i believe in faith and destiny, i would have said NO. But,today things do stand different and if I was asked again the same question, I would say yes there is something called destiny/fate.  It can make or break your life, can make your dreams come true or shattered at the end of the day.

I have seen a few people whose fate had changed.  People who have rode high on their luck and some who could go any further as luck was not with them.  Don’t really know how fate works but most of the time it comes across as unfair. As we all are already made aware of the fact "Life isn't fair".

Lets look at the case of  Priyanka Chopra who became Miss World in 2000 in spite of giving a wrong answer. Her question was “Who do you think is the most successful woman living today and why?”  Her answer was Mother Teresa who had passed away in 1997. Now don’t you think it was unfair for others that they lost out for answering correctly and the one who won had got it wrong?  The winning of the crown acted as a stepping stone in the Hindi Film Industry and she did well to capitalize on her opportunities....

The worst that fate had in store of was for Charles Goodyear who lived in the peril of poverty till his death.  His invention (vulcanization of rubbers) made the rubbers more durable and it gave him nothing except tragedy. Sad as it is..

One wonders what constitutes fate and makes it work the way it does.  Sometime no matter how hard you try you still don’t get what you want. Then you see someone who does not even put an ounce of effort and yet they get what they want without really doing anything.  Makes one wonder what is good karma and bad karma?

Sometimes, I do wonder if they are ways of testing the people.  Then again why the people who work hard to get what they want are put to test and left disillusioned, while the people who put the least effort have it easy and get to eat their cake too.  Isn’t that unfair?

No one can understand what happens the way they do.  I guess the only thing one can do is to keep trying for what they want.

ReNuka G

A CluMsy DicTatorSHip

As we walk on this earth, passing each and every obstacle it offers, there is one thing everyone sees in common. We see people. Some walks pass us, some walk with us and some just depart on the way with an unfinished journey. This is not anymore to be a questionnaire. The puzzle is the impact these people leave on us throughout their existence. Does each and every one person we meet along the way leave their foot prints behinds? Do people really disappear from our lives?

The impact of people on us is just how circumstances get hold upon human life. The grip is so hard to let go. We weep upon the loss of a pet, but its nothing compared to the tears we shed on the death of our beloved. People, human, man-kind, call it anything; the impact is just the same. What could the reason be here? Why are ‘people’ dictating our threads of emotion?

not bad =pp
Well, if we were to look back at the story history narrates, we are all related. Stressing on the point Adam and Eve are our ancestors, we are all their descendants. Maybe it’s this far tie that bonds us emotionally, making us feel, stirring our emotions when our so-called relatives mess up and screw us! Well, I feel kind of funny on that point actually. Hmm lets proceed..

Why? Honestly I don’t know. Maybe because it would be so absurd to fight with animals or to expect plants to create ‘dramas’. I did mention many time even in my previous blog that, why-s in life and relationship issues as always a forever question mark.  People and circumstances have a strong grip on us and this is nothing but the truth! A fact indeed. We care about some, we hate some, we fight with people, we screw them, they screw us and it all completes the circle. We swirl across weird events and circumstances just to prove how our own species dictate our lives. That’s it.

So the conclusion..well, GO WITH THE FLOW! Life is always fair. Everyone gets to dictate.

Good Night!!!

Renuka G

Complexy- Complexo

I have at last come to understand myself this far, that I can’t understand myself! It’s a complex phenomenon, not many people can straight away categorize themselves into the small cocoon of an adjective or two which refers to what they are and what they aren’t. The idea is, there is always an involvement of time and place in whatever we think we are. For example, you may say you like blue, of all the colors and that’s it, this is the only color you like the most. Your friends or family put it down in their diaries that okay she likes blue to the most so I’ll gift her blue jacket on her next birthday, and thus a blue jacket is what you receive. But at that very point you realize that you really don’t like it as much! Reasons could be endless, but for the purpose of understating lets pick a few, like the following.

1. You hate the fact that you are so limited. (Everything you are getting from all the friends/family is blue in color)

2. You do like blue but unconsciously, deep down in your heart, you want people to add more colors to your life.

3. You like blue just as much as you like all the colors, but you associated with just blue particularly because you like the value and the personality characteristics associated with the color blue, and so for people to judge and think of you in that way, you decided to incline your absolute likings with it (may be unconscious attempt) for e.g. Your declaring blue as a favorite would make people think of u as a tom boy, or a person with cool and calm personality?!?

The point is, we are all in the process of knowing ourselves and discovering each day; the constant attribute of our personalities that is ‘change’.  An adjective or two can describe yourself of course, but it doesn’t stick as a label often. We are not some static thing without momentum or inertia to hold us in a place or category.

So the conclusion is that we are not just one person, not in just one particular phase of life, let alone the entire period of existence! We are multiple sided, diverse, and subject to change. We all have many personalities within us. Tom boy today? May be a shy girl tomorrow  or how about an integration of the both; subject to time and occasion? 

Changes are like permeable membranes, it penetrates no matter what! So why resist? Absorb’em =)

Renuka G

Others Make, We Learn

The last thing I should be doing right now is writing a blog post but I’m gonna do it cuz that’s what I WANT to do. Besides, nobody really likes the last options, the last numbers & anything that’s last in general. Everybody likes being on the top, the first, the best! The day I chose non-conformist as a word to define myself, I took an oath & so I can’t really do what normal people subject themselves to do. So I’m gonna like the last, the hateful, the neglected, the marginalized, the discriminated, the suppressed, the less-than-perfect, the unholy, the unethical, the least expected..

ok this is my second blog and what you are reading now is my 1st post in here !!
this post is mainly about 'Learning Through 'OTHER'S' mistakes!!

We are told to believe others’ narrations so that we do not make our own mistakes and irony is that it’s thought of as a good way of raising & rearing the coming generation. It’s thought of as a protection, the best protection in fact which is given to the inexperienced by the so called experienced people. What they don’t understand is that it’s destructive, I say let there be mistakes, let people make their own bloody mistakes. Why must one take anyone’s word on how something should be done is absolutely beyond me. If you are the one to face your death then nobody but you should be the one to face your life as well, and however you decide to face it. But no, that’s not permissible. We have strict codes of conduct which all must follow. I’m not gonna go into how narrow and flawed those codes are and how the death of morality is seen in those codes that are deemed to protect morality, but I’m gonna make a suggestion, a redundant suggestion nobody is ever going to take, but I’m still going to make it until someone, at least one person takes my word. Be less judgmental, more humanistic, and individualistic.  Don’t impose and once again don’t judge. Do what you are here for: you are here as someone responsible for your own soul so might as well take care of that instead of drilling holes in someone elses’ soul. And lastly cease to subservience, look around and question!

Have a Great Day
Renuka G