Trials of the present

WARNING: Language at its worst. Some of the content might mirror the irony of the real situation, therefore readers’ discretion is kindly required and appreciated WITHOUT any rewards.

 

Lately things are going more haywire than usual. Mountain high assignments, pending presentations, untouched novels (yes I just wrote that), taxing projects ,roughneck comrades, etc etc.  But since myself here is such a ‘darling survivor’, I’m somehow keeping everything together like a set of done-jigsaw-puzzle.... or perhaps even MORE like a balloon that takes in air waiting to explode any time soon. (Jigsaw puzzle and balloon?? Seriously  Renuka? )

Whatever it is, I believe I will come pass everything.  It’s not like I have never done anything like this before. I’ve accomplished plenty. *statement dalam keriakkan*

Most important of all, paper works doesn’t kill okay?! (You are so gonna regret this statement dear) 

At the moment, yes I’m stressed and I’m exhausted and I’m pissed and I’m clueless and I’m (insert proper negative verb). However, none of the above suggests that I’m throwing  in the towel! Come on people, ‘survivor’ remember?  

And I’ve been through worse things that these ‘easy-as-A-B-C ‘ stuffs are just a piece of the proverbial cake (specifically Oreo cheese =D) 

What worse things? 

Well since you asked, here comes the list;

-I’ve worn a pair of Old Mc Donald shoes with a pair of fancy zip at both sides that comes with no box!

-I lost my broadband in KLIA. Does any normal human lose a ‘broadband’ in the airport which has free wireless?? Kidding me.

-I realized my inability to use and even hold (shivers and quivers) a liquid eye liner for which I spent RM 35 for! 

-I’m so convicted of using a fake Chanel iPhone case and flaunting it like a real one by making 19 people believe without any interrogation (Guilty!) and unfortunately time played a game that had me busted a few hours ago. Sucks man!

- I recently committed myself into LOTSA manual labour which includes washing my own clothes using my own hands and own detergent and own softener and ya A NEW PAIL . Back to basics babe!

-And this is the WORST! I was confronted by a devil’s spawn at 6 am a few days ago in my freaking room!! The confrontation certainly took so damn long that I had to use mild violence to end it. ( No CATS were hurt in the process, but my Folder just died of humiliation-to-its-purpose) The incident certainly acts like an eye opener that confides me there are creatures that are MORE stubborn and demanding than Ms RENUKA!

Since I’ve survived all the above without a mojo-maker, I want to confidently declare that I need NOT  listen to Gloria Gaynor for I have Destiny’s Child in my playlist! (ape ni???? !!)

No, that was moot!

Again.

Since I’ve survived all the above without a mojo-maker, I want to confidently declare that I’m the best babe! In dealing with paper works of course =D

See ya

Renuka G

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The Author indeed

We are the authors of our own lives.

I wish everything within is just as easy as the quote shelved.

However to explore further, is it that easy to author?

Whether it's the heavy responsibility or the absolute authority, which is less burdening anyway?

At times, how we wish our lives to be subjected to someone else's duty. To not take blame and live guilt free is indeed a gift that human kind missed by writing their own present and future in an obvious yet subtle manner.

I wish I could give up the canvas as well, but the repercussions of letting go the grip too seems as scary as holding the pen.

Renuka G

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Guilt Struck!!

Guilt. I shall call it the most discomforting feeling anyone can ever be put into. Just like soaking in your wet clothes after rain, waiting for the moment to rip them off with the dampness and coldness it causes you, guilt is capable of throwing anyone into such state of uneasiness.

If I were to say guilt struck me like a crime, I’m afraid I might be summoned for an overstatement. However, to stay calm and claim it as a lil trouble that found me sounds like a sneer worth understatement. Point blank, I stand somewhere in between the two and I can’t state the level of discomfort I’m currently submerging into even if I try 'that' hard.

Why am I feeling guilty? What for?

Just like all/most-of the other girls out there, in a dream of at least mirroring a size 6 (UK), I have jeopardized my dinner during my days spent in my hostel. Now that I’m back home where every mouth watering delicacies are so reachable and visible to my stereoscopic vision, my fingers can’t help but grab these good stuffs to channel into my system.

how can one resist this?? *drooling*

As you all readily aware, weight gaining and lost is all about the equation of input vs output. Therefore guilt is at the moment bugging me like a hungry mosquito, since I’m doubling or perhaps tripling up the input with minimum output!

Guilt struck

Renuka G

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Tribal Prints

Let's wave goodbye to the eyes-soothing color-blocking trend

and Polka dot dresses

This season, from nails to the mid length pencil skirts  it's all about tribal prints!

Get your wardrobe ready for some primitive designs and HOT HOT colours! We are about whine vintage like a loud art.

Renuka G

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Currently In a Relationship

With :

Yes i'm at the moment busy reinventing my tumblr account which is already like an ancient artifact never bothered to be viewed or even touched. I'm stuffing the canvas with my personal life and daily encounters just like my 'Novelty to Nothingness' blog which had been made private due to some inevitable circumstances.

Whatever it is, I want to keep my tumblr account to my own self so that I can have my full privacy at one place without having to worry about any parties invading it. Stalk me if you can! 

But trust me, it's isn't easy to find anyone on tumblr what more someone who's undercover =)

Good Day!

Renuka G

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Why be perfect?

Perfect like this?

Sometimes I tend to imagine how the world might be without the silly mistakes and our inborn imperfections.

Wouldn't it be too perfect then?

While half of the world is striving towards the flawless nature in everything, what will reality mirror if we were to have it all?

Just imagine days full of happiness and joy with no frowns and zero wrinkles. Everyday exhibiting that of a fairy tale ending and merry beginning. Will we be satisfied by then?

I don't know.

Not to pick on the past or judge by the present, but I always felt that we humans, believe it or not somewhat posses an admirable elasticity that allows us to stretch and return. No matter how hard we stretch our hopes and wishes, we will apparently return to the original state (of flaws and hiccups) back. Perhaps it is possible to go through changes in some fashion along the process but concur or not, life is bittersweet whichever way you to try to put it. Regardless of how much changes you digest, imperfections will frisk you everywhere. Like seriously EVERYWHERE.

So, learn to Accept it, Work with it and Rock imperfections like lipsticks of Ombre hues!!

In style, in your shoes.

The closure,
Perfection is a dead end with no-moving-forward, but life is always a route full of diversions and crossroads that go in search of new beginnings always.
In simple words, striving for perfection is like a note to the blind. Pointless and imprudent.

Renuka G

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Sometimes the mind...

walk pass problems even though 'trouble is a friend'

Truth be told, each and every one of us bear dissatisfaction about our own lives. Deep inside there is a voice that wishes a little bit better than what is currently ours. Am I right?
Well if you shrug ( just in case) I suggest you add liar to your CV .

Being realistic without disregarding the fact that the ball is now at my court, dissatisfaction is common and normal. However what i feel everyone should strongly detest is the act of going a little too extreme to the extent of hating their own lives.

Those who fail to seek beauty amidst the chaos is certainly a lost traveller who has no hope of trailing his/her way back. Hating even anything brings nothing but a heart full of grudges and misery, so why hate life?

At times we are moved to do things that brings no harvest isn't it?

Life is hard and it's not all rainbows and sunshine as mentioned by Rocky (=p). But if you are wise enough, you will see something that not everyone care to see. Something that lures you to live another day, like every day !

All answers are etched within but searching is just an option.

And while bearing the bible of survival, your heart obviously isn't a place to rest the burden of hatred on.

Stop hating and start moving towards better days and sound perceptions!

Good things will soon reach you , me and everyone! (maybe not at once, but it sure will)

Renuka G

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Siri Moments

Our crazy convo with Siri just now.

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A Lagerfeld Game

Hello!

A good news is knocking doors of all the budget fashionistas and calculative Divas out there.

Something is brewing ladies; get yourselves ready to be served.

Fashion is a big-ticket possession they say; I bet they haven’t heard this one just yet.

It’s an ultimate dream of every girl to be wrapped around the creation of this fashion whiz. Who doesn’t recognize the 79 years old mysterious-stern-man of the industry who flaunts white hair and a pair of shades like a craved possession?

"My thing is to work more than the others to show them how useless they are."

That’s Karl Lagerfeld.

Looks like the victory and fame on the runways every season isn’t enough to set him handcuffed from another venture in this forever-evolving industry.We sure know something’s cooking but that’s not in Chanel or the Italian Fashion House Fendi.

Rumours has it that Karl is about to reign another line of his own,officially on the 25^th January 2012. While the preview is gaining tremendous number of hits on  net-a-porter, which girl wouldn’t kill to know more?

Just like Michael by Michael Kors and Marc by Marc Jacobs , Karl is the baby project of the mentioned designer which sells its' fashion pieces at a price assumed affordable to nearly-all devotees out there. FYI prices range from $95 to $450. 

According to ELLE Jan 2012 issue, the biker jacket is going to be the hotcake to be sold out in hours time this February. We will see about that!

love! love!

Well to speak about the design, it looks rather futuristic and bold compared to his usual stylishly elegant pieces of Chanel. 

Bags and shoes? 
That’s still all hugger-mugger.

So, while we keep our fingers-crossed waiting for the launch, why not take a sneak peak?

Net-a.Porter/Karl 

To dip thy fingers into fresh start in this industry takes more than just courage, and I dare bet 79 isn’t a big hurdle for this legendary icon of fashion. I wish K.Lagerfeld and Net-a-Porter luck!

Ladies,
I once heard love can spring at unlikely of places, but in this case it rather looks like luxury goods can spring at unlikely of prices!

Renuka G

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Deciding to decide

Decision-making is indeed a spine-chilling experience! Universal truth. PERIOD!

its exactly like this! pain in the neck!

Me, you or anyone is not exempted from making choices to shape our lives in a certain way. I have made like a plenty!

But that's not the case here.

Things blow out (tremendously) when we decipher the consequences and stick a label on the applied option . TO be not so brutally yet quite brutally honest, the judgement we channel towards the choices and decisions made is the culprit that has thrown us into the fear of concluding one.

Without much realization, we reason out choices-made by tagging them privately the label good or bad while the mind solve the puzzle to blackball the cause . As human nature speaks, the odds of a negative outcome is forever the devil's workshop to educate failure and eradicate hope. Therefore more often than not, we are eluding from juggling options and finally holding one due to the outcome of the previous decisions and fear of the current fluid stand point, which jolly remarks a great lost to your own self!

No-brainer.

Well if you were to ask me I would say, choices do not signify the good or the bad as we used to classify them; instead they're all about their abilities to teach us something on the all-done-execution and what they can really transform us into.

So decide now; to juggle or to gibber?

Renuka G

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I don't know

Neither do I!

Honey,
The one thing worse than going a year without shopping with a pocket full of cash is completing the PBS portfolio!

Can you imagine?

Well, I totally understand if you can't since who wanna fall into a nightmare voluntarily right?

But how the hell she does it? or they? or everyone else??
KIDDING ME!

Life sucks whenever a white folder is up for submission (sooner or later)!

Renuka G

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Plastered Pain

This is written after an hour of  VERY deep slumber so mistakes and errors and not forgetting the usual lameness ( which is extra boosted this time)  are certainly excused without a doubt.

Ok the introduction is just fine (yes I meant the above) but what should I  fill the rest of the canvas with? 

My nestum?

Bad idea.

Hmm lets try this one.
Have you ever walked so far and returned and walked back to one freaking destination like the HEP building? 

No? Then Ask me.

Have you ever felt the excruciating pain that doesn’t let you stop or move one more step forward in the so called call of responsibility and commitment?

No?  Ask me again! 

Why the hell am I here if not to share?

Yes I have experienced all those things in just 1 day. Not to scare anyone but this is the harsh reality that awaits any high-heeled class rep of IPGM KDRI.

Even a lecturer asked me why I look different today. I tell you what, people do look different in PAIN!

To all High-Heeled Warriors out there (in IPG) ,the next time your class pulls you to take the mentioned honour-with-clear-repercussions give yourself 3 simple choices;

this is an option but not for a vain pot like me

1. Take the honour, burn the heels or
2. Keep the heels, shun the honour or
3. Seriously just die!  ( You can still keep your heels intact and get ‘honoured’ at the same time! GENIUS.  P.s. Breathing isn’t at all necessary for this option)
 

      Take it or leave this page ok?!

Point blank, I have deep rooted issues with leadership since Macbeth itself, to be exact  the dramatization (Remember when my actors were dancing without the music? That's talent... and also a DISASTER). Anyway the leader is not entirely to be blamed (Technically..Supposedly...) except for the 'impressive-and -worth-applauding-moves. Guilty!

According to my instincts and current heavy duty consumption of energy, I'm foreshadowed to mirror the do-not-resuscitate patient in intensive care any time soon. I’m even slightly flustered whether to congratulate or feel sorry for myself. 

What do you think?

Till you answer that,

Renuka G

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Fizzling fuss

i was that furious..supposedly should be

Fuss forms out of nothing and that is the difference between attending to a problem and a self moved projection by others. Yes I'm sick and it's just scouring my patience away. I wonder if there's a way to virtually let someone get a taste of his/her own medicine.

While forbearance wear thin, what an act of nobility armed by absolute hypocrisy can do to worsen the current?
DAMAGE!

Just like a sprinkle of petrol on the glowing splinter, I'm fuming so bad.

I don't like to unnecessarily react and throw tantrums at people but this time I feel as if this 'good nature' of mine is taken advantage of by the mentioned party.

Ok whatever!

I'm not gonna change who I am and make another fuss, instead I let you finish your own game while I intrepidly get a sip of calmness into my all-meshed system.

That's today and yea, trouble is a friend (pun intended)

p.s this post isn't a fuss! if you think otherwise, you didn't read anything buddy....

ReNuKa G

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1st of the 2nd = 3rd

Transformations are not necessarily positive but they are indeed a necessity that each of us should welcome with open arms.

They say ruin is the road to success and even there hides transformations.

Sometimes it lifts us and places us in such an admirable position but the same subject of transformation can jolly topple us towards a frisson of failure. It's just like a game of fortune. Who knows which brings what.

So,
while transformation routes a new journey on your path, don't forget to keep mastering the art of accepting and appreciating.

That takes you far, extra mileage than Shell Super Unleaded 97 itself. * extra miles at no extra cost!*

Believe it!

And finally,
Have a great semester!

Renuka G

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