Move Forward

There a few recurring events lately that taught me this, to move forward no matter what life throws you.

Whatever shelved in the past is just for the record, and your present do not have to be a reflection of the events that you came pass.

People say nobody really change and you will always be the person you are. But trust me, only when you want to believe it, the mentioned morphs into the truth and later forms a fact. So why blame human nature here? You want it to be true, isn't it?

Tell yourself people do change, tune your head that you can be different from the current and ya, watch the magic.


We give up trying the moment we utter the 'NO' and 'NEVER'. Erase them completely and you have a chance to see the open doors awaiting to welcome a new breeze into your lives.

Shoo off what's done and begin anew! The clock is ticking......tik tok tik tok =p

Renuka G

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Candy Bags by Furla

These bags got me swooning!!!!!

How I wish I can eat'em! nYam nYam

Dang I want one! =DD

Renuka G

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Low count, little blessing

Have you ever felt rejection?

I felt it today.

I've always believed that life is all about doing the impossible. To be able to walk pass hurdles with much courage and obliterating each and every fear etched within by actions that were deemed impossible. To simplify it all, life is all about moments.

Today was an attempt to get me a step closer to that moment. But maybe the absence of the blessing to be blamed, for the much unforeseen circumstance.

Whatever it is, I tried. I somehow defeated my fears and yea I'm proud of it. :)

ReNuKa G

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LOUDER!!!!

My exasperated self just said hi! 

YES training these kids for the Action Songs competition isn’t at all an easy task. It’s like climbing your way up the mountain with nothing but a bottle of water as your saviour. 

Why is it tough?

First and foremost they disappear. We were given 20+ students initially and the number decreased as days went by, landing only 17 on the list at the moment ( or is it 16?)

 Where the other 3 went?

Is it an illusion? I swear it’s not!

Next they can’t be bribed! Kids nowadays you see. You might think you are smart with the A++ winking HOT for Child Development course on your exam slip but let me tell you this; THEY ARE SMARTER ANYHOW. SO if you think by making them meals and buying them ‘that’ much drink you can hear them projecting their voice, please crazy murder yourself. NOT KIDDING.

Finally, the existence of the ‘you stop I stop’ phenomenon. Equality man! Only if the teacher sings that these kids would follow. Why would they want to waste their energy alone right? Teacher sing, I sing la! That’s it. I told you they are smart. And a little too mean. Having explained the situation, all the best in taking care of your voices dear teachers for, they might even demand you to get on the stage and ‘Action-song’ with them next week.

At the end of the day =s

BTW did I not mention the amount of money we teachers are channeling to get the props and clothes done? ( Trust me, my or shall I say ‘our’ bank balance reeks sympathy)

NOW tell me, ‘Sape cakap senang nak jadi cikgu?’

Please shut up and melt like the candle. 

Renuka G

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Happy Valentine's Day

You will always be a special one to me,
I’ll let you hold my hand and walk pass every hurdle
I’ll embrace you with hugs even with my eyes full of tears
I’ll keep your heart so close that nothing you need to fear

And I’ll relive every moment even if our bond disappears.

I remember writing this some time ago, well maybe a long time who’s counting.  Since tomorrow is Valentine’s Day, I’m putting this up to show that I’ve loved and I’ve felt it coming back to me in the most wonderful way. It was great, it was so beautiful but it ended somehow.

Fate they call it people. The grip is jolly hard that breaking away is not a possibility laid open.
It’s a tough life dear, but still so wonderful keeping me looking forward for another day.

 
There are things that we can’t foreshadow and there ought to be moments that we can’t elude from. Life isn’t an action replay isn’t it? It is so novel to the extent where we need to be thrown into situations in order to feel it.
Well, I’ve felt both, to be loved and to be pushed away. I’m not sulking, I’m not asking for sympathy, for whatever that took place is my past and I deny not it is a part of my life right now and forever. Plus, I’m the person you are seeing this moment because of every single thing I came pass, so it is fair enough that I accept the bittersweet encounter with love and of course the impact of the healing wound with much gratitude .

I once said I’ve lost hope, I don’t want to fall in love, I don’t want to care, I want to forget and the list goes on and on. I have said so much, I’ve promised so hard but the reality being moving on isn’t an easy chapter. You can be in your own shoes and dictate things, well who can’t right? My heart is broken and I’m hurt, so let me say this; healing doesn’t start and end overnight. It’s hard enough that it can confiscate your self esteem and deplete even the last bit of hope left. I’ve been there long enough to make you believe, till you start controlling your thoughts, you ain’t got no life to live.

Am I still there? Well, I can’t answer that literally but true enough, I’m learning.

I’ve hoped for miracles, I’ve stood in a place so long waiting for the impossible, I’ve prayed enough wishing for things to change yet everything remained so static except my hope which squandered each and every moment of my life.
Then I stood up, I changed every single thing I thought I would never be able to do. Yes I did wore the ugly most mask, I messed up and I eventually regretted some things that I committed  but I witnessed for once in my life the circle spinning the way I wished. Not to say I’m free from heartbreaks and disappointments! I do have the whole package in my life like the rest of you. The point being, I recognized two important keys to survival; positivity and the ability to smile at every hard moment.  I’m working on the duo, still am.

Whatever my past speaks, I won’t say love sucks and I’m not against anyone who is waiting patiently for tomorrow to arrive. It is indeed a gift peeps. Or shall I call it a blessing? To be able love...

To endear someone despite their flaws,
To forgive every mistakes like it’s never done before,
To embrace and repay all the heartbreaks with best intentions,
To forsake even the little left to get one more chance of being together,
And to love beyond all odds.

Nothing human can savor more than this one emotion that keeps us all striving for another day.

It’s love and it’s the ultimate miracle .

Happy Valentine’s Day!

And to all the single girls like me out there, it’s another day to throw smiles reap laughter.

FYI the poems are all mine!  ( from the lameness you can guess)SO Don't STEAL!

Renuka G

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Dimmed yet Seen

seize the day!

I’m not sure whether I can mean the world to someone or be able to give all the joy in the universe to anyone. But I believe I can put a smile on your face with my words and actions. Yes you! You, You and You too.

Our actions and words might seem as simple and spontaneous like reflexes yet the impact it leaves upon someone is indeed underrated by we the doers and speakers ourselves.

Isn't it so ironic that even the best things we commit appear so microscopic to our own vision ? Sad uh?

But worry not friends, for what’s done is safe as memory to be soon returned with much happiness and gratitude. Fingers-crossed.

Wish you all a great weekend!

Renuka G

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Thou Shall Wait

Nearly half of our lives we spend our time waiting. Some people wait for thing that they know would arrive while the rest wait upon miracles and the unexpected to knock upon their doors. In both cases though, our hope is consumed like energy bars that boost us up each bite we take in.

Concur it or not, we all do wait don’t we? Despite all the false hopes that we knew was obvious and the outcomes that confirmed heartbreaks, we all did and we still do, because we believe, in the amazing occurrence called change armed by a feeling called HOPE.

Hope, such a miraculous word that brings frantic joy to the human race. Etched within every soul, it glows like a light in a dark cavern. Without the one ladder of hope which elevates us up to a cause with the heavy burden of time, waiting is proved nothing but a sweet dream that we all wish we could endure with much happiness disregarding the mind games of the subconscious.

I’m waiting and I will forever wait. The best thing will soon arrive. I believe it will.

Renuka G

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Yea-Right

c00L =)

Patience pays off but I’m not so sure how far the notion can go. However, to believe is indeed important.

I’m generally known to my circle of friends as someone who can tolerate any nonsense without throwing a sucker punch on the opponent’s face. I’m fussy enough to pick the right situations to react and trust me they are just a handful or perhaps less.

I believe that when I stay calm things moves smoothly and when I throw tantrums, they backfire like a threat to my entire being both emotionally and physically.

Yes I speak patience like nobody else and I’m proud of that!

Since I’m no novice, I have got something to share : As there are and there will always be people out there who want to stir things up even for no concrete reasons, we should learn the art of patience. And make damn sure you arm it and shield it with positivity because when we allow emotions to rule a situation, our mind therefore becomes an impermeable space which is only full of negative thoughts and the urge to act hastily. This isn’t good!

Stay calm and be patient, you can walk pass anything without regrets or guilt.

Renuka G

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The Time Traveller's Wife

I'm enjoying every bit of this novel!

“Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?”

" I am a trick, an illusion of the highest order, so incredible that I am actually true."

“There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one syllable. I love. I have loved. I will love.”

“Chaos is more freedom; in fact, total freedom. But no meaning. I want to be free to act, and I also want my actions to mean something.”

“Time is priceless, but it’s Free. You can't own it, you can use it. You can spend it. But you can't keep it. Once you've lost it you can never get it back.”

Renuka G

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Grow2

As we grow up, there are certain things that we should learn to accept and adapt accordingly.

What I have in my hands right now is neither what I predicted nor desired but how can I deny the possession I have over it at the moment? It's mine and there is no way out or u-turns set available.

Even though the presence of stress has been made obvious enough , I have got no choice but to endure it and accomplish what has been made mandatory without much fuss.

I just want to pass this and yea may god bless me :)

Renuka G

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