CurtAin FaLLs

Holla everyone!! Its New Year’s eve and I'm pretty sure everyone is excited about stepping to 2011 and exploring the new ventures it has in store. Well, I am certainly excited too. Unfortunately I would be celebrating my New Year in my hostel room. Its OK because this is not the first time since 2010 began in this place as well. 

Ok whatever! I don’t have much expectations or changes for 2011. Its just going to be an upgrade from foundation to degree in B.Ed TESL, which I consider to be a good thing. Not exactly because I'm a teacher material or what-so-ever! Its solely because of my love for English and Literature. Hopefully I get to do Hamlet by William Shakespeare for degree as I love Shakespeare soo much ; to the extent where I would just kiss him if he was standing in front of me now <3

A reflection on 2010. If you were to ask me whether it was a good year then my answer is certainly a NO. However it is definitely worth! People need tragic things in life to mould them, so do I. 2010  thought me a lot of valuable lessons, I went through worst events that I would never be able to undone. Thorough out the year, I was just living surrounded by head games. ILLUSIONS. Which of course provided happiness, but unfortunately they were just a wind that touched and passed me the next moment. I appreciate the lessons but not the pain; not that I resist pain but the pain I went through was unbearable. Some people betrayed me, things eventually went outta control and got back in place, weakened trust in relationships, biased professionals, etc etc.

Everything thought me more on people and of course about myself. I'm finally ready to make decisions for myself. The vague me is disappearing slowly. I'm going to be 20, certainly I gotta get more matured right?

Whether I forgive everything others did in my life, I'm not sure and I don’t expect people whom i misbehaved with to do so too. Lets just let time heal the wounds, and about those scars, I think I have to bear them for the rest of my life. I don’t wanna wish anyone bad things nor I wanna patch those broken ties. Time will tell and reveal..

That’s all I got I guess. I really wish to continue blogging and we will see about that since I don’t know what is in store for 2011 in IPG. If everything goes well, I hope to create another blog about ‘something’. We will see k.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! LET’S WELCOME 2011 WITH A WIDE SMILE AND A CLEAN HEART .. WISHING EVERYONE ALL THE BEST =D

CURTAIN FALLS

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I've forgotten..

My eyes are raining and even my arid dreams have become soaked 

My eyes are raining while my sleep cries in the corners of my eyelids

My eyes are raining tears fall and my heart aches

My eyes are raining as the season of dark clouds and separation approaches

I have started to become friends with dark and empty nights

Lost in these paths, nothing belongs to me anymore

I don't how I endure each passing moment

I keep telling myself over and over again

I have forgotten you

Then why have your memories

Made me cry.

I can hear the words written in my memories of you

Passed moments ask why we parted ways like this, Oh Lord

this distance I've got

 God, it's only your decision,

God, it has happened, that you had written..

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SeARChinG is A Sin

It is amazing how every time I think my blogging days are over I bump into this place somehow or the other and end up composing a new blog post. Well, if nothing else, it at least proves I have what it takes to be in a long term relationship (which I’ll be in someday… or not). Anyway, so I don’t have any specific thing to talk about today, neither am I in the mood to go into self reflection or those kinds of serious things so I think I’m just going to make this post about my life updates. It’s important that everybody does that every once in a while in order to know where exactly we are in life. 

So I’ll start with my recent trip to KL for 3 days and 2 nights. I of course had a splendid shopping spree in a few malls there, to be exact; Pavillion and Suria KLCC. It was certainly my best shopping experience ever since I spend nearly one solid day in each mall. Hmm not really that ‘solid’, still obeying its operating hours =) I bought a great bag of my choice, a few occasional tops, shoes and a shirt for my dad’s birthday! Telling the truth, I didn’t fully explore those malls! Yet it was enough for me to finish nearly my 3 months allowance! We had a great stay at the Frasers ‘apartment. I would credit this place as the best of all other hotels and apartments I had stayed before!  Overall it was a kind of trip I would like to go once again!

Christmas =))

Curtain raised in Kluang. I started the routine of watching the series in AXN BYD. Not forgetting the latest movies I watched ; Aisha, the proposal, eat pray love and we are family! All those movies were simply awesome!! Hmm then comes Christmas. It was a great one as well. As usual I get to strike a pose with my Christmas hat. And I was pulling them off the whole day, even though I was just staying in most of the time. The childish me =)

I got another 5 days of holidays left to be enjoyed. And did I mention that I passed my finals?? Yes I did and thank god for his blessings =) LOVE YOU GOD.

Just felt like saying; You don’t have to be happy or be working towards happiness all the time, or even some of the times. It is not necessary. You can call your sad life a good life; you can live on the streets and not build yourself a house or have a family and call it a good life. Its all in your mind how you wish to calculate your well-being!

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WaNNa ArGue??

I’ve been wanting to write on my blog since the past so few weeks but I kept pushing away this feeling every time, not because I couldn’t find the time to write or didn’t have anything to write .it’s just that SO much has happened in the past weeks and such amazing things have happened that I didn’t want to do injustice to those events by trying to encapsulate them into a collection of inexpressive words. Ok let me proceed with my core purpose of logging in tonight!

ARGUMENTS and ARGUING. How far do you guys believe in this? Is it worth? 

wanna argue??? =pp

When I say ‘argue’ then of course it contrasts with confronting. Confronting belongs in more calm and peaceful genre while arguing is more about hosting a debate on an issue. Emotions are shot up to extreme levels at times in arguments.  To conclude in my way, I would say arguments leads to high BP while confronting ends in disappointments. Both seem pointless but confrontations look a little bit healthier.

Ok that was just about clearing the confusion between the word ‘confront’ and ‘argue’ which some presumed to have the same meaning or what-so-ever. Moving on, arguing? I believed each and every one of us had argued over something at a certain point in life. When we recall back those tensions and  harsh words and debates , do you think it is worth ? to be clear, did those arguments really resolved an issue or was it just a momentary zip-of-the-lips which sparked worse fires in future? And  a point to note,there is only two ways  an argument in a relationship could end, 1^st the magical word of ‘sorry’ and 2^nd ‘goodbyes’. How long do you think a SORRY can last? 1 week? 1 month? 6 months? Then back to square one. People do what they feel like doing regardless of what others feel about it.  This may sound harsh because, people call it ‘reality’. Conflict is not like mathematics. There is not always a solution waiting to be found and even if there is, how often does it a full-stop? A full-stop pulled down is what appears most ( I mean a comma (,)  )

to cry soon, if u think so..

In a situation where people are far more anxious to express their approval or disapproval what confides you a peaceful solution? So why argue? Many people are taught to lie to protect someone's feelings, here I suggest you to fake it! it may sound bad, harsh, mean or what-so-ever you call it but trust me this is the best-ever way I can suggest. Silence, it pays off. Of course you won’t solve an issue, but at least we save some hurt. Its my piece of mind that arguing and confronting are barely a scenario of emotional outburst. We feel dissatisfied and our mouth gets really itchy to voice out and finally everything just get blown out of proportions and we cry. 

Hmm peeking from the side of an optimistic thinker, maybe arguments could work ! but of course with a condition. The person or party you are arguing with should be tolerant and have the tendency to accept people’s views and opinions. Trust me, this is freaking hard!! Nowadays people wanna win and nobody wish to be in the noble shoes of the losers. We got our own self-pride,ego, dignity, yada yada that will certainly restrict us from jumping off those fences.

Do mercy to your body and health! Don’t create a worthless battle where everyone wants to fight and no hands wants to resolve!  Silence is golden, problems will fade in time, lets not make resolutions that flies with the wind and comes back as a catastrophe. 

Good Night =)

RnzIous

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Felicitous Life

Ok let me update about my holidays. OMG its freaking fun and kinda boring at certain point, hmm like ‘now’! now it makes sense why off a sudden I'm updating my blog right?? Haha so me...

the don't-know-what-to-do pose

Starting from where it all begins, the end of finals!! Later, I had to spend 3 long days in my hostel room for no reason as exams finished earlier and, we had to obey the rule of the no-words-to-describe IPG of not allowing students to go back prior to the real holiday date which  (which I forgot). Hmm the 3 boring days were killed by watching Ranbir Kapoor movies on youtube! *bliss*yet boring.. I watched his Wake up Sid, Ajab Prem Ki... to-long-to be-spelled and Raajneeti .  After all the cleaning of the mess in my room and packing, I finally get back home safely!!!

Curtain raised in kluang! Ok back home I once again went through 3 days of so-called imprisonment!! Hahaxx not literally that but sort of. But I got addicted to AXN Beyond ! I sailed smoothly for 3 days via watching this 1 channel!! It is way more interesting than AXN of course, not for the reason its HD but the shows and series are simply fabulous! Drop dead diva, Flipping out, the real housewives of NY, and the recently premiered; better off Ted just to name some. Oppss  I forgot to mention the reason for the ‘imprisonment’. Actually I had to wait for my sis to finish her exam and come back home. You know, family activities needs 4 ! I mean the whole family need to be involved.

Then I went to KL to get her stuffs and fetch her from UPM! And there comes the kick start of my real holidays! I went to the 2 most renown  malls in kluang, do I need to mention the names?? Not really for shopping but to buy gifts for my mom’s b-day and to catch movies.  And I suppose it is not shocking at all if I were to mention that I ended up buying a pair of sandals at vincci and some cosmetics at the bodyshop! The ecstasy is that everything is sponsored by MR.GS, my cute-cwit dad!! What a life....( this time I'm not sighing =) )

By the way, everything above happened a week ago! This week, this moment I'm just st

aying at home, once again sailing through the days accompanied by AXN BYD, Diva, Star World, MTV and a few more channels. Its is absolutely ok because I'm so HAPPY and PEACEFUL!!!! That’s the highlight.

Now on the shopping plans!! This Sunday I will be spending  2 days exploring Malacca!!! My favourite place to shop and look-see.. YiPPieeeee!! Roughly after  two weeks I will be heading to KL for another shopping spree! Honestly I cant wait!! Seriously I'm so freaking happy and excited of course.. 

<3 it short

Such a Felicitous Life I'm living..*in heaven* well not forgetting my new haircut, concave bob!! I'm loving my hair short!!! It looks neat and just-nice..

Hallelujah....

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