To walk a dream

I'm a dreamer. Now that I'm unemployed and commitment-free, I have progressed to the next level of dreaming, excessive dreaming. I mean whatever, make sense out of it. My head feels like a reservoir of plans and procrastinated efforts with an automated door allowing access anytime I wish. Hence, I'm always in my dreamland.

Sometimes I wish I could dig out a few ideas, actually bringing them at least a couple of steps closer to reality, but laziness seem to be one clingy partner. Dreaming is the easiest and consumes very little to no work at all thus, producing a faithful user out of me. Not fair yet justified.

I think I'm just another human capable of pampering myself to an unacceptable extent. How sweet of me, right?

Though it was me who wrote the above, I genuinely feel this should not go on for long. There is no doubt that I am a lazy, forever-sleepy, bored soul but naah. As soon as I start working, if this were to become a habit then I'm most certainly in a lot of trouble. Bearing that in mind, I'm gonna make one of my humble yet personally grand idea to use. And everyone will definitely  be informed of the progress!

Renuka G

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Transformation amidst unemployment

It has been a crazy journey! Working out is not easy, especially for me. One hour of cardio and the other set of workouts can drive me insane sometimes. Frankly speaking I get bored real fast. I just could not count the number of times I changed my workouts. Sometimes I do planks , at times I totally ditch that and commit to crunches. It's just never easy.

But I'm proud to have not given up for as long as I started to workout. It sucks sometimes to wake up after a deep afternoon nap thinking of the next one hour of cardio. Yes I hate cardio the most! Having said that, realising I have survived a month plus with limited skips fill me with pride. 

They say weight loss and body transformation is 30% workout and 70% diet. I apparently mess up the latter severely as soon as I see French fries in the menu hence leaving me no choice but to hold on to my discipline when it comes to burning the calories. Safe to say, I had never  indulged so much when I don't workout. I usually make damn sure that I do a little yoga in case I miss my daily workouts. Plus I don't believe in starving to lose weight! You can always see the difference between the body of a person who works out and those who only let the diet do the job. Another reason being, I'm a foodie! And a baker .haha

Even though I'm not a size zero, I'm happy to look at myself in the mirror. This is all my hardwork. I remember those times I used to be close to 62kg but now I'm down by 10kg at least. And the best part being there is no muffin top when I sit or stand! I'm still far from achieving my fitness goals and forming healthy eating habits. For now, I'm happy where I am.

Renuka G

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Thinking in/of Progress

How do you know who's the right one for you? And just like that how do you know which is the right place to kick start your career?

I had battled the mind-numbing thoughts before, for a few times actually. By battled I mean, I did decide on the best but now that they handed me a second chance to make changes I am left confused. For a long time I have gripped strongly to the belief of heading wherever life takes me. In fact, I made the shelved choices based of the mentioned belief. Never in my life I thought I would leave INTI, and embarassingly  I didn't even know where Terengganu is in the map of Malaysia till I get the offer letter. However, that is exactly where life took me and 5 years went by just like that and here I am a degree holder baffled by thoughts of the future.

The conflict is between money and progress. Which one would you choose?

Would you rather go somewhere far, forgoing most comfort and progress settling for the pot of gold or be happy somewhere you could get the comfort, advance academically at ease but for a much lower pay? I am still weighing both choices, the pros and cons. Perhaps I won't find the answer , or there is no answer after all. Sometimes we just have to close our eyes, stop questioning so much, take a leap of faith and make the best of what life hands us. Once again as I mentioned earlier, wherever life takes me!

As I am writing this it is getting clearer, I do not need to over think this. Selangor or Sabah, I will somehow make it work. Those with dreams and ambitions do not fancy excuses people say. I will get my masters, pursue my baking dreams and be the best version of me without calculating the time I have to sacrifice and invest.

It's gonna be alright!

Renuka G

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Oh god!

So it's new year uh? Let me start off by wishing everyone a great year ahead and good luck with the ambitious resolutions. Hope your memory got space to retain them till year end and scan for viruses occasionally, alright?

I don't want to make a cliché post about 2015 and new beginnings, I'm gonna talk about beliefs. 

The existence of God has been a hot topic debated by people around the world. Plus I bet at least once in your entire life you have questioned the same notion. Does God really exist? Is there a power up up up there watching over every move we make? Can you prove it? 

I think it's incredible how some things are not meant to have legit answers. This means the ball is settling in our court. Hence it leaves us helpless to create our own answers which can never be proven wrong by anyone! Just in case you feel too in control, you could hop on any of the prescribed belief system that tunes your brain into something. Voluntarily!

I have seen both. I know some who believes in God and some who choose not to. Well, I never questioned any for choosing what they have chosen. The problem being some people do. 

Like seriously, why? Let's look at the whole water in the glass concept. Is it halfway full or halfway empty? Can you successfully prove which one is correct?

Admit it. Nobody has seen God but there are things that makes people feel He exists. It could also be something else. A scientific phenomenon maybe? Whatever it is, it's personal. The world is no place to stuff your beliefs onto somebody's head. Keep it with you! 

I wish some of us had the respect to accept the person next to them for who they are and what they want to be. God or science, we are all humans. Right ? If you are an animal kindly let me know, we could make headlines together ! Winks.

I don't care if you are counting sins or molecules, you are amazing regardless!

Good night !

Renuka G

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Waited and waiting

Some say waiting is such a sweet experience while the rest of the human race refrain from the heartache. I have waited for a couple of things in life and still am waiting for the rest in the wishlist. Waiting can be both sweet and painful but what keeps people going is the hope. The hope that someday somehow their pursuits will be entirely their own reality though the odds rather seem depressing.

We are driven by the beliefs we create to go another day looking at an empty space. We run faster than yesterday, we imagine the future to be closer, we beautify the pursuit and we enrich ourselves with optimism. Some make it to the finish line while the rest throw in the towel. There is also a pitiful crowd who surrender to the pain of the lost battle.

How long is it alright to wait? And what is actually worth waiting for? Isn't time more valuable than the hopes we ourselves create? We can surely answer all of this but can one not second guess himself after convincing the mind? 

It's tiresome to go days looking at an egg to hatch. It's painful to stare at a wound hoping it will heal someday. It's also blissful to think that all that may happen if we give our priceless time. What is life without sacrifices, right?

So wait. You may have travelled miles to unlock that one door, you may have missed a few amazing sights while getting there, you may be all by yourself,  but it's alright. Let the promises of what could be behind it move you. We win some we lose some, that's life. You need to invest in some risks to reap memorable experiences.

Wait and keep waiting. Good things come to those who ....?? Waste some time folks, it could later be the profit you made without even realising.

Renuka G

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Easy.

 I have stumbled upon many instances which left me confused of people and their decisions. At times I myself look back at my choices wondering why. Easy. The chosen option was easier than the rest, that's the answer. Most of the time we are tempted into taking the easy route to avoid many things we fear. We stubbornly insist on staying clear of further arguments, burning bridges, losing dignity and often times, resisting change that might occur. We rather take an illegal u-turn instead of a big round, simply because it's easy.

Is easy always right though?

Renuka G

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