Tears: A Sign Of Humanity

the other side of the world =(

Ok what can one say about the ups and downs in life? Nothing right? We can’t resist them, we can’t shoo them, we can’t bear them neither. What a complicated situation! I thought I’m such a happy person till the last few days. When the scenario that is capable of pulling me off to the ground pays me a ‘homely’ visit! Geeee I didn’t mean that!! I got a free ride on the emotional roller-coaster and trust me, I haven’t get down YET! What a ride..Well, to add more details:

I’ve become very sensitive, touchy, emotional or what-so-ever your vocab spells it as, these days. There was a time like a few decades some time ago when making me cry took nothing less than placing a cut onion before me or blowing chilli powder in my eyes but,  now making me cry is as simple as making me look at a pleading beggar on the street. I don’t know and I'm really really not sure if it’s my sincere feeling for those in misery that makes me sad or is it my self-esteem which gets hurt as a result of my helplessness at the state of such people! The point is that, I don’t know. I don’t know yet who I am because I keep fluctuating between extreme states of selflessness and selfishness. Well,ya both. I’m a combination of contradiction to the point that it’s hard for me to breathe down a single breath without much reflection and monologues . And the inability to express those complexities further frustrates me. But the following quote makes up for a good expression of my oh-so-complicated thought process, so here it goes:

"I will tell you what I will do and what I will not do. I will not serve that in which I no longer believe, whether it call itself my home, my fatherland, or my church: and I will try to express myself in some mode of life or art as freely as I can and as wholly as I can, using for my defense the only arms I allow myself to use –“

Ok that was pretty much of it and the quote is not mine by the way. Thanks to James Joyce for expressing it on my behalf. *hyperbolic* well to highlight on the part of needy people who won my sympathy and humanity, I'm proud to say till this moment i never turned down anyone who came to me for help and i'm thankful to my parents who taught me this value. i will always help those who are really in need and it makes me happy to commit such charity . i hope those who read my blog will opt the same because the joy of the feeling that you had helped someone today, when you are about to sleep every night is really great.

Conclusion?its kinda a bit here and there isn't it? Again, I don’t know. I just love to write so much and sometimes I don’t even make sense and don’t think I don’t know that because I know that. And just because I know that it doesn’t mean I should know how to fix want I know. Ok I'm DONE!

i like it complex!!!! duhhh

Complexy-complexo World 

Renuka G

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Perfection Vs Hypocrisy

What ah??? =ppp

I don’t know why today I felt like talking about this again. But ya it happened and lets not question it much. I'm gonna talk about love. What is love?  You guys answer for yourselves, because  I dare not answer such a complicated question. Honestly, there is no universal explanation for love except to categorize it as a feeling. I suppose..hehe. ok lets begin! I once believed in this notion. What notion? This notion! 

I believe everyone can change if the right person comes along. 

Ok that is the ‘this notion’! well I really don’t think the whole idea can get any far.  Maybe in some cases it is proven to be true but honestly its kinda not taking the majority range. You can’t really change a person and that is a fact. People don’t change just because somebody is pressuring or demanding you to do so. It should come from the inside, one should realize and decide what he/she wants and correct himself/herself. Pressure to bring change? You can go fly kites!

Another thing about this whole idea of changing and becoming a new person is, it is overrated. Maybe coming clean and becoming perfect is the ultimate selfish act of the person who demands the change. Don’t you think it’s like a slight hypocrisy there? You love someone and you start going head over heels over that person and off a sudden when things don’t go as you wish you start to demand change as a solution. It might be pure hypocrisy sometimes. Plus, how long do you think it can last? few days?? months? till another catastrophe pays a visit to your happily-ever-after home?

Well, another blunder in this notion  it, its not like a person just changes and become a whole new person the next day like where did the old self went? Swept off by the wind? Don’t you think it sounds absurd? It is I suppose...

Love can never stand under the foundation of tolerance . It needs a strong base of understanding and acceptance. Without these, letting go is the best one can do. We're raised to believe that the course of true love never runs smoothly, there is always hiccups on and off. But if you think tolerating and changing solves, its going to end in big disappointments! Bank on it.

when disappointments batters your belief system, Mojojo recommends this book ..=)) *so drama*

 ~You can't be in love with only half a person~

Renuka G

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D.R.E.A.M

Finally I'm over with my UAKs and of course I'm kinda flying in the air thinking about the not-at-all hectic class schedule I'm gonna have next week onwards. There won’t be TITAS, BM, and also the subject I ‘adore’ the most GERKO! But certainly there is something that is gonna set me down as well. My finals for this semester!!!!!! OMG linguistics! OMG Literature! OMG OMG child development! OMG OMG OMG philosophy of education!!!! Goshh screwed. Well good news for you all!!!!! the rest of the post is not about my naggings k? So lets proceed.

I dream of being featured on sweet wrappers!! =pp

DREAMS… we all have them right! Remember wishing upon the stars? shooting stars? Full moon? Mulan? Hmm maybe not mulan. I'm kinda impressed by her though, just wanted to show my appreciation and admiration on her courage! Love you Mulan! Ok I'm done! Back to business. The dream I described just now was more like a wish or hope. That is not the core purpose of this post! I'm talking about the real dreams! Goals in life. When you imagine yourself to be somebody one day, to be somewhere everyone will look up to, something like that.

its written on my iPad! whatever my dream is he will always be happy for me =))

These dreams, often act as a driving force that gives us reason enough to look forward and start a new day. Dreams can’t be just random fantasies which lay there, in the back of your mind and you pull it out every once in a while just because they are wonderful! NO its different! 

Fantasy and dreams. You need to closely dichotomize the two of them and don’t ever think these two are the same piece of thought. Fantasizing is more like a shot in the air I suppose. If it reaches the target, well good enough, give it an applause!! However if it doesn’t, in that case, your fantasy either fades away or you find a new one to replace them. More like a temporary goal that varies and travels as your imaginations play in mind. But dreams are different, and dreams are important. 

Fulfillment of dreams mean hitting the bull’s eye not by chance but by sincerely working out your way towards an objective, this is what each of us should start sculpturing. It needs courage, persistence and a God-like passion for your dreams to materialize because it is more often a long term affair. You don’t dream today and tomorrow you forget about it and do some ordinary stuffs and dream again and forget again and yada yada! That is fantasy, a for-the-moment-thingy. 

My darlings wishin u all gud luck!! (do enlarge)

To live your dreams one needs to work towards it. Be sure about passion and the rest two will join you in the way. I know everyone who is reading this have a dream just like me. but do you guys think it is really a dream or a fantasy? Fantasy can be great for the moment but a dream requires you to travel a very very long road but when you finally get there, trust me it would be the best thing that ever happened to you. Hope this inspires you guys to figure your tiny tiny little little BIG dream! All the best!

Fantasies Fade but A Dream stays

Renuka G

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Satsuma My LOVE

Ok this is like a new attempt in my history of blogging I suppose! Hehe. Everything must have a start right? This post is gonna sound kinda or maybe exactly like some promotional add or post or review or what-so-ever you wish to call it as.

As a ‘proud’ member of The Body Shop, I would like to express my love for their Satsuma Puree Body Lotion!! OMG only god knows how much I love this particular item. I purchased it some time ago like about 2 months perhaps and I never get to use it till yesterday since I was busy glossing my body with their Strawberry Body Butter. And ya, today was the day. I pumped it, smelled it, smoothed it all over my hands and it smells unbelievably orange! Of course it does since Satsuma is mandarins and ya closely related to the family of mr.orange and well whatever. It felt so cool on my skin and moisturized it and again you know the smell. This doesn’t mean that I'm neglecting or degrading my darling strawberry body butter and body scrub! They mean a lot to me as well. But this lotion just got me flying .*I know you know that was an exaggeration*  so me!

thnx to the body shop!!

Well let’s move on to the part where we start biting our nails and scratching our head! The PRICE of course. What else can it be right?? Hmm the 250 ml costs RM45 and the small one should cost less. Maybe you guys can try the small one first before ‘investing’ straight on a whole huge bottle! 

Ok right, that is all about the Satsuma lotion story I guess! The most important message I wanna highlight is that please don’t tell anyone who belongs to the family of the Body Shop that I'm doing some promotional post about their products in such a lame way , that is FATAL =pp  

Just keep chilling and keeping having great moments in life like my web cam pics!! Cute right??? *self praise is benign at times*

Renuka G

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Mr Happy Loves m3

Happiness is very subjective. Each of us see it in different ways, in different things. But one thing for sure is we know when we are happy. There is this weird excitement that takes control of yourself making you care a little less about the hurdles waiting. It’s an emotion none of us want to neither eliminate nor resist in our life. What can we relate with happiness?? Colours? Nature? Perhaps a sincere smile?

poor baby monkey can't see him =(

Its really weird at times to grasp how small things in life makes our day a happy one. Even if we trip the next moment, at the end of day when we reflect on the happy moment it still makes us smile a little. That is how important and meaningful happiness is. I remember one of the day a few months ago when I was feeling so depressed and frustrated and devastated and I don’t what other state , I heard my friend’s laughter from the room next door and I don’t know why it made me smile. Believe it or not friends, sometimes we do feel the bliss from other’s happiness. I didn’t make her laugh of course, she was watching some Korean tv show but yet her laughter made my day, like a boost perhaps to smile and forget the worries.

For me, it is all about the will. If you want to make yourself happy, you can! At all circumstances! But sometimes we should see the situation also of course!! You can’t be laughing like a mad man in the funeral house right? Or else I don’t know which asylum they are going to send you to. What a pity!

cute stuffs make me happy =))

Life is not about those tears you shed and the moments you spend grieving over spilt milk and stuffs. It’s about what you do with your life. I'm not going to be so philosophical and say you have to make a difference, create revolution, new innovation yada yada. So not me! Just keep your life in your grip. Nothing is more precious than your life. It’s a gift from god! If you believe in his existence, *whether you pray or not is another thing that I don’t wish to touch*, you should appreciate this gift and make each day meaningful to you, and trust me , if you can make this happen, you can certainly make people around you happy as well. It’s more like a chain reaction that continues and goes on and on. Make yourself happy 1st, , be glad that you are born in this world, take the lessons and move on, everything is gonna be alright!

<3 u all

Trust me, even a smile creates a chain reaction! Be happy! Things will be alright as long as you keep trusting. Now SMILEEEEEEEEE 

Renuka G

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70 to remember !!

1. To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world.
2. Your presence is a present to the world.
3. You are unique and one of a kind.
4. Your life can be what you want it to be.
5. Take the days just one at a time.
6. Count your blessings, not your troubles.
7. You will make it through whatever comes along.
8. Within you are so many answers.
9. Do not put limits on yourself.
10. Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
11. Reach for your peak, your goal and your prize.
12. Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
13. The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
14. Do not take things too seriously.
15. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.
16. Remember that a little love goes a long way. Remember that a lot ... goes forever.
17. Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
18. Life's treasure are people together.
19. Realize that it is never too late.
20. Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
21. Have hearth and hope and happiness.
22. Life is 10% of what happens to you, and 90% of how you respond to it.
23. Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily.
24. Take the time to wish upon a star.
25. Words are windows to the heart.
26. You are richer today if you have laughed, given or forgiven.
27. I don't have to attend every argument I'm invited to.
28. Life is like an onion; you peel off one layer at a time and sometimes you weep.
29. Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.
30. A good example is the best sermon.
31. No one is easier to deceive than oneself.
32. The greatest fault of all is to be conscious of none.
33. Love is understanding, acceptance, and tenderness. If it tries to strangle and possess, it is not love.
34. The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.
35. The task ahead of us is never as great as the Power within us.
36. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.
37. When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
38. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
39. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
40. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
41. Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.
42. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
43. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
44. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
45. Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind.
46. You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future.
47. Love ......and you shall be loved.
48. All people smile in the same language.
49. A hug is a great gift..one size fits all. It can be given for any occasion and it's easy to exchange.
50. Everyone needs to be loved...especially when they do not deserve it.
51. The real measure of a man's wealth is what he has invested in love.
52. Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.
53. It's important for parents to live the same things they teach.
54. If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday and the worries of tomorrow, you have no today to be thankful for.
55. Happy memories never wear out.... relive them as often as you want.
56. Home is the place where we grumble the most, but are often treated the best.
57. The choice you make today will usually affect tomorrow.
58. Take time to laugh for it is the music of the soul.
59. If anyone speaks badly of you, live so none will believe it.
60. Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears.
61. Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.
62. The best thing parents can do for their children is to love each other.
63. Harsh words break no bones but they do break hearts.
64. To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it.
65. We take for granted the things that we should be giving thanks for.
66. Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished.
67. Happiness is enhanced by others but does not depend upon others.
68. For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.
69. Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are.
70. AND DO NOT EVER FORGET .... FOR EVEN A DAY HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE !

 Renuka G

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