Unwrapped

First and foremost, I wanna send a warning to tears! If at all you are reading, please be selective of situations to flow out from my eyes. I'm sick of dealing with mascara mess and wet cheeks. Plus waterproof make-ups don't sell cheap ok? Considering all that, and also this being a closure post of 2013, I would like you to by all means stay away! Now back to my hopefully-existing-readers. I finally got my exam results of the 6th semester. Happy...

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The thin line

I love burning bridges in the heat of the moment, and that's an ugly truth of mine. Well there's enough space to criticize my morals based on what has been stated but I waive that chance to those nitpickers out there. Whether it's a weakness of mine or my character, I'm usually inclined to react to situations especially dramas in a very hasty manner . Just as much as I love to end them, I love to end them fast. Hence,  all points...

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Lemons that made lemonade

Choices in life finally, always, comes down to two. Wants and needs. I believe everyone is much excited about wants rather than needs though the truth is usually, wants being the exaggeration or extension of our needs which may or may not be truly fundamental. Don't think there is necessity to further explain the mentioned because who wouldn't like getting things their way right? For a fairly long time, I have been that person. I was obsessed...

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Take a breather

There comes a point in our lives that we close one eye to some things around us. We stop caring who's watching, we stop observing who is doing what, we stop thinking of the what ifs and what nots. We just live life. We throw our hands in the air and surrender. Not because we are weak. Not because we are afraid. For the reason we choose to take a breather and care less than we used to. Life begins the moment one realizes both his ability and limitations...

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Burning Bridges

Whatever that leaves you is for the good, that's my dad's way of confronting life. He always advises me to not bother if anything goes off my grip because it's just not meant to be. Sometimes I look at past relationships, an old friend perhaps, thinking maybe things would have been different if I did it another way. Delusional tale. It's like meddling with a broken wheel. Only because it rolls when I spin it, doesn't mean it's gonna roll by itself...

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That Pretty Dress

When a dress is new, we hunt down events to wear them. To flaunt it's freshness, to let the world see the beautiful design of it, with a smile rather as perfect as the dress itself. We make home out of a mirror, turning to the right, to the left,  moving like a ballerina on top of a music box. What an amazing sight.  Time will pass. And the same dress you once donned at every significant event of your life, will soon wear off. The stitches...

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Spreading joy

You can sit where you are and spend a lifetime chasing after things you think will make you cheese, or you may opt  to open your eyes to the beautiful world around you.  It doesn't matter if it's a lemon or a lemonade that life throws at you, find joy in simplicity. Don’t let negative situations or people become you. There's no excuse to change the good in you. Hold firm to your ground ! People leave a profound impact on us, our thinking...

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ABC goes on

There are times in my life, so rare that it goes unnoticed , I get too eager to read every single thing crossing my vision. Today is one of the mentioned. As much as I want to call myself a slave to boredom, I rather say I'm craving to expand my knowledge. God I'm done being dumb. For about 2 months I was so busy being busy that it intruded so badly with my reading routine. Now it's time to dust my ABC. Reading makes me feel smart. It's not like...

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Bye Bye 2

Someone wise or not wise I'm not sure, told me I have a career which will give me satisfaction every single day. And I still am searching for the truth behind his statement because I do feel satisfied everyday,but on the number of hours I get to sleep. I sleep in the staff room in the morning between classes, I sleep after school, I sleep at night. Apart from all the hitting the sack agendas, it's more like stress rather than satisfaction. Especially...

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Cheerrrrrrrr

I have heard many stories and some I have seen taking place right in front of my 4 eyes, considering that I'm wearing a pair of spectacles. However, the stories capable of moving me most profoundly are about people having tons of weight on the shoulder yet sprinkling the rainbow dust to those around them. Cheerfulness is indeed a value to be learnt and appreciated by everyone. It has the ultimate power to eliminate many negative thoughts and pain...

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Rain Rain Go Away

A wise man once said, life's tough get a helmet. Even though I have no idea who is he and why he phrased it that way I agreed with him to a certain extent. Today a wise girl is going to say something, so you better be all ears. Life's tough, get an umbrella. Well, I need not further introduce the wise girl for we all know who is she *winks*. Let's just move on. What is with rain people? What's with the rain? It has been 2 weeks since I was tormented...

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Blurred Whys

I'm going to be super free till next week ends, so more nonsense coming your way. As the preparation for your mind's saneness, read this. So yeah, today I was, as mentioned, so free, I started to blindly stalk humans on interpals. Well that's entertainment you  know. Like seriously, you have to try that. Reading people's profile is sheer fun-tertainment. Even though mine is one clown-house space, I will still laugh at people's. And what...

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Silver linings, not playbook.

Every cloud has a silver lining. But not all silver linings could make the dark cloud gloom any less. With that said, there's more to failures than small victories, and there's more to life than sheer happiness. Everything is reciprocal, you do the math. Renuka...

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Stability.

This is the voice of experience speaking, so you better listen. If you ever think of becoming a teacher, take an emotional stability test. In case you fail, start promoting yourself else where. You have been warned! Don't become another me. by my year 3 kids ..gingerbread man I'm capable of blanketing my emotions pretty well. Oh screw being humble! I'm darn good at that. However when your heart crumbles, it crumbles no matter what. Whether you...

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So serious

Ok holla back everyone. So why am I back? And that's what you have ask? NO. I have stopped answering rude questions, therefore, I shall proceed and make your eyes sore looking at the screen. Well, this is the part of my life called, ' I don't know'. Yes that's the name of the part , not I don't know being the answer. Kapish? ( And that's the  new spanish word i've learnt which I will use fully for showing off purposes. Oh wait,it's Italian)...

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You, I know

You know that one quality capable of juxtaposing life next to heaven? It is the ability to endure. The ability of falling on your face yet standing up with both feet firm on the ground. The ability to not let things or emotions dictate you in a way that it cripples you. That quality, it is rare!  If you think you have got it, tears and sorrow must be your long-lost friends. Smiles and laughter must be the new life companions you flaunt. There...

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Always a thumbs-up!

Lately I'm getting more and more reasons to start worrying. Sensing a  big voice screaming to my ears, 'Be afraid Renuka!'. As creepy as that might have sounded, it is even creepier to feel it by yourself. So the mighty question being, should we worry? Well, of course! If a red warning sign so huge as a billboard is flashed right to your face, you got to react. But not so much. Worry leads to more worry for,  we are etched with the incredible...

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Let's box it off

Today was a hell of a day I should say. It's not like I'm refusing to work hard or eyeing for an easy way out, all I wanted was a little smile amidst the trials. Perhaps I'm demanding too much I'm not sure. But it's ok. If this is what awaiting, I accept it. I'm making peace with what's has been set as the meant-to-be at the moment. We cross the river when we come to it, meanwhile, I'm gonna stay positive and stay determined of my resolutions. All...

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Ready to switch?

If you can't change the circumstances, change your perspective. Let's just face it, you are not gonna get things your way! It might sound like a slap on the face but hey, that's called reality. What's meant to happen will happen, whether it favors you or frustrates you it's the later part. Deal with it honey, we don't hold the thread to our lives, we are all apart of the show instead. There ought to be occurrences getting on your last nerve,...

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Here it comes !

Thomas A. Edison once said discontent is the first necessity of progress, well I'm at the moment discontented. Discontented with the teacher that I am because I know the teacher I can be. You may have heard me expressing my carefree attitude about whatever that had taken place during my first practicum. But hey, I'm feeling discontented at heart. Whether I can be better let time decide. Whether I can strive to be better, that's my call for progress. Only...

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Of new beginnings and fragrances

Here it begins the 6th semester of my degree programme. Of course I'm feeling very blessed considering the results that I've shelved the previous semester, but this is a whole new beginning. More challenges ahead of me, ups and downs, trials and tribulations, all got me excited to face it. I really don't want an easy ride home, rather settle for the combo of both sides.  This person believes that struggles mould oneself into a better being,...

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Happy Father's Day

My father always deserves a post ! Well what  can I say, words aren't enough to describe how much he means to me . The hands which held me close, watching every single step I take since I was little. The heart which never fail to love me and forgive me along the way. He's such an inspiration. Someone who isn't afraid of forsaking his all for his children. Someone so kind and genuine at heart. A soul which wishes me all great things in the world though deep inside I know he's crying. I do realize we are not like we used to be, and the blame...

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You know when it happens

I wonder how two worlds collide. A lighted oil lamp seem to stand tall among chandeliers. It's amazing to see the newly blossomed flower from the garden looking over the old tree.  Just like that, some things are not meant to be justified, only felt. They marvel us, they excite us, and they take us by our feet without a clue. Rare I should say these happenings. Some stop to feel, while the rest ignore. If you know it's happening to you, don't...

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A Matured Relationship

Don't think I'm unaware for I'm fully conscious of the speculations and stalking activities that have been going around for some time. Well to set the record straight, and let you all hear it from the horse's mouth itself, I'm still single. Perhaps a little taken by heart, but I'm not getting deep into that. And those who already formed chains and any sort of linkages of me to another man, kindly erase it please. So moving on, since the confession just made the rumor mill turn sour, lets add a little spice . Today I wanna talk about relationship....

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Slurp the Surp

Holla people! Hope everyone is good. Today I wanna talk about surprises. Yes surprises. Some are capable of giving a free ride to cloud 9 while some could throw you off the cliff in mere seconds. I love surprises, and any normal person of course, would stand by the sweet surprises, avoiding the bitter ones like a plague. But since I just can't understand normal, I love'em both. Hey, I anticipate the unexpected you see, who cares what mood it...

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My Day.

Since I'm directly involved with today, I'm not letting go of the chance to enlighten you about my experiences. Look closely at the choice of word, 'enlighten' babeh! So before I even start, allow me to wish all the exhausted-yet-surviving-teachers in Malaysia, Happy Teacher's Day. I know the pain, I feel you folks. Though I'm more like a half-baked, half-seasoned educator, I desire to take you into my little world called the ' Teaching Tragedy'....

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